Hey Kally,
Sorry to hear you’re having a tough time at the moment. It sounds as though you have a number of things hitting you simultaneously and that can be tough to deal with.
I’ve not been around much myself recently, but that should start to change soon. Give me a shout in-game if you need to let off some steam and we can go and repeatedly shoot/stab stuff until it falls over! 😀
Makk.